I finally realized that my traumatic past has been catching up to me. My unresolved fears and pain of abandonment as a child by my parents has seeped into my adult life. It triggers extreme reactions in me that drives people close to me away.
I like to pretend to be strong. That whatever comes at me in life, I'll just pull myself up again and get over it. I'd like to believe that what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I'd like to pretend that if I somehow draw out pain, and put it on canvas, that the pain will be contained on canvas, and not deep inside me. But that's not true.
When I'm knocked down and broken, and left to pick up the piece
I haven't been here for quite some times.
Actually, I almost forget how I used to stay active in DA before.
Just missing that old time so I will try to update something here to keep this page alive.
I miss you, old friends.
And welcome new friends.
Nice to meet you!
RL Commission Info!
I'm gonna be frank.
I'm now saving up for as much money as possible for my future plan.
So I'm doing whatever I can including open commission in case anyone interests.
1. Normal printing size is A4 with 300dpi resolution. Can be negotiate if you want a larger size.
2. Give as many specific details as possible, reference art will be highly appreciated.
3. I have right to post, display any commissioned arts in my website. Credit will be yours.
4. Art will be deliver within 2 or 3 weeks. Please be patient.
5. Mojor edit is forbidden after sketching is accepted.
6. I draw every art with my high effort :)
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It's been 3 years since my last update.
Forgive me everyone. I was addicted to some online game and my life has been pretty messy from then. ><
Aww.. I feel so bad. I shouldn't have started to play it, but hell, yah, meh fault.
Thanks for all of your comments, all supporting and for those of you who e-mailed me. I got your mail and answered them all.
I thought my page must have been left deserted, but I see that some of you still coming and ask for me. Thanks a lot.
I don't know if I will ever get my art skill back. But I'm start drawing again. >< Will submit something new soon.
Should I still use
Yeah it's been a while since my last login to both Gaiaonline and Deviantart. A lot has changed and I'm glad that there is someone still remember me. ><